Hari ke-103
By Claudia Tasya - March 19, 2015
My dear Tasya,
I'm so sorry that I don't celebrate our 100th day. Then again, happy belated 100th day, dear. :)
Many things already happened on our days
I shared to you many things
Even those I kept by myself, even though I'm a bit harsh, you already knew it is me and it is really no one else beside me that can do such things
We kept dreaming for the future, even though we are now busy
You are going to work and doing college almost everyday; I can say that you are really a tough woman. Like her. I doubt I can do such thing even though I am going to work and doing college as well right now.
You have read once in my book: I want to find such qualities that I found in her, that maybe unique only to her. But I want you to be better than her. I shared you everything what is our fault in our past days. It is the only way that I can redeem myself and do better things through those faults. Faults so extreme that only me and her can do such things. But now you know, and I hope you understand what I meant.
I pray for you just like anyone else that I thought is important in my life. Including her as well.
But it's already two years now, and actually the first thing when I see those photos, I am a bit shocked
And then my heart melted for a second, how those happy days returned to me
And then I remember she shouted at me at the telephone, "We have already discussed this." "No, Edwin, you can not do this thing anymore." "I do not care anymore about Edwin. Well who cares now? Siapa yang peduli sama Edwin sekarang?"
At that time I realize I am no longer with her, and now I am with you, sharing almost everyday of our life, I told you anything
It's the same way I will do to her if she came back to me, but the fate says another
I hope I regain my hope completely later, with you, so I can really say, 'My dearest Tasya'
I'm so sorry that I don't celebrate our 100th day. Then again, happy belated 100th day, dear. :)
Many things already happened on our days
I shared to you many things
Even those I kept by myself, even though I'm a bit harsh, you already knew it is me and it is really no one else beside me that can do such things
We kept dreaming for the future, even though we are now busy
You are going to work and doing college almost everyday; I can say that you are really a tough woman. Like her. I doubt I can do such thing even though I am going to work and doing college as well right now.
You have read once in my book: I want to find such qualities that I found in her, that maybe unique only to her. But I want you to be better than her. I shared you everything what is our fault in our past days. It is the only way that I can redeem myself and do better things through those faults. Faults so extreme that only me and her can do such things. But now you know, and I hope you understand what I meant.
I pray for you just like anyone else that I thought is important in my life. Including her as well.
But it's already two years now, and actually the first thing when I see those photos, I am a bit shocked
And then my heart melted for a second, how those happy days returned to me
And then I remember she shouted at me at the telephone, "We have already discussed this." "No, Edwin, you can not do this thing anymore." "I do not care anymore about Edwin. Well who cares now? Siapa yang peduli sama Edwin sekarang?"
At that time I realize I am no longer with her, and now I am with you, sharing almost everyday of our life, I told you anything
It's the same way I will do to her if she came back to me, but the fate says another
I hope I regain my hope completely later, with you, so I can really say, 'My dearest Tasya'
I put a big expectation of you - because I know, you have the ability to do it. And I will help you, from here, from afar, from 459 Km away between us. You know I will stay. Once you take my heart completely, it's yours. Do not ever waste this - Maria Theresia Claudia Tasya.From your boy
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